Hi friends! I'm back after spending 5 days in the California desert.
Having not ever really spent time in the desert before, I found myself falling in love with it. The plants, the critters, the big big sky....
And isn't that magenta cactus incredible?
This is what I woke to each morning:
It was so beautiful and peaceful.
I'd never seen a joshua tree before -- they're so bizarre and prehistoric-looking. Someone told me they're actually a species of cactus, but they have bark, like a tree! Totally fascinating.
I saw jack rabbits, and desert cottontail bunnies, and hawks, and lizards, and the craziest ancient-looking desert grasshopper that looked like a pink and grey stone.
It rained the day I arrived there, and I was told it was the first day of rain in 3 years -- a very auspicious day to be arriving in the desert.
I went to the desert to take an energy medicine / soul work course. And now, returning to my life in Portland, I feel lighter. A bit freer. Like my perspective has shifted slightly. Like there's an invisible side to life that I've never tapped into before that's now all of a sudden becoming available to me.
I've known for some time on an intellectual/mind level that the universe supports me, and that it responds to my thoughts, and that we are each made from the same stuff as the stars, and that we are each co-creating the world that we live in right now, in this moment, and all that stuff I often wrote/talk about.
But I feel like I'm finally starting to GET it. Like, in my body, and not in my mind. I'm starting to feel it and truly know it. And that is really exciting. While I know I'm not alone, I often feel alone, like I have to figure everything out myself and do do do more more more strive strive strive, and I'm beginning to understand that I'm actually not at all alone, and that my most important job on this planet is not actually to do do do strive strive strive but to just BE ME. To be as me as I can be in each moment.
One of my teachers spoke about how each of our energies effect everything around us, and that we each have a responsibility to choose what type of energy we're adding to the world. He said he often asks himself this simple question when he starts reacting negatively to something:
"Is this what I want to add to this situation right now?"
That really resonated with me. That question gives you room to pause and choose how and who you want to BE in the world. What a gift!
I'm so grateful for my time in Joshua Tree. I can't wait to go back.