:: acrylic paint on 1 1/2″ deep wood panel
:: measures 10×10″
:: white painted edges
:: ready to hang with wire on the back
This is painting #1 from my ‘100 Messages To Myself’ painting series.
This is an original painting. There is only one!
I am emerging in all kinds of ways right now. I feel this weird impetus to do everything differently in my life these days. Different thoughts, different routines, different ways of working, different projects… this energy of new beginnings and emerging from the muck as a new version of myself is running deep and wide through my body and my life right now. It’s shaking things up, it’s burning things down, it’s helping me love myself more, it’s helping me look at myself and who I am and how I want to move forward, it feels confusing and exciting and scary and sad and thrilling all at once… Sometimes I just want everything to go back to the way it was. Sometimes I grieve what was or what could’ve been. Sometimes I wish everything was figured out and I could fast forward to some answers for how things will look and feel in the future. Sometimes I can sit in the present moment and feel grateful for all the good in my life. Sometimes I can see that I’m in the in between right now and all I need to do is keep emerging, keep emerging, keep emerging… and one day I will look back and realize I’m somewhere and someone entirely different. The same, but different. (Here‘s the full message I wrote when I painted it.)
My life changed dramatically in August 2018 when my husband suddenly died and then again in January 2019 when my baby girl was born. It’s been a strange 15 months! Creating nearly daily art has been one of the main ways I’ve tuned in to my feelings and to myself as I’ve moved forward. Sharing the art that I’ve been making and the messages I’ve been giving to myself has been a powerfully healing part of my journey, and I’m so grateful to have the opportunity to share my images and thoughts with you.